This morning I did an interesting practice, which I recommend, of plugging into google's search engine identifiers that I "identify" with. The quotations there are important, as it is quite difficult to remain so strongly in connection with each individual word that I relate to as a word to represent my identity. Such is the contrary, although these categories that may best "describe" me are used to represent my identifications, they are NOT my identity: We are more than the labels that are put upon us.
Here is a selection that I put into google:
woman, white, lower-middle class (is there even such a middle class anymore, I'm pretty sure we're just about at two classes now: the rich and the poor-- but this is for another day), mother, student, worker, gardener, photographer, yogi, trail runner, and there are so many more I could add. What I find interesting is that saying just one of these is not nearly enough: I am not just a mother, I am not just a student, I am not just a etc., YET I am a mother, I am a student, I am a woman. It seems the more we write in terms of identifiers the closer we get to nailing down our identity-- or is it?
All of the things that I consider my identifications present areas of disidentifications, which then also become my stronger identities: I am a woman so therefore I am not a man. Although, I feel that stressing this point is necessary for my personal "saving" of my face and who I am and who I am not, to decipher my identity, this too should be left for another day.
THEN, there's the whole digital world of "identifications', which are representations of these words that I feel don't accurately represent, yet I can see the representation "as a whole of each category" being understood as such.

So here is an image of a "woman", one of the first image results in google. Sure, if being a woman means wearing make-up, having dyed blonde hair (naturally I do-but that doesn't matter, I don't think), pink lips, model pose, and sultry eyes. No doubt we can't deny that she is representing the female sex, but is she representing a woman?
I then was curious, what would come up if I put the word "feminine" in the search engine. And an image of tampons and pads appeared: what the fuck, was my initial reaction. So to be feminine is to have periods: well, I haven't had a period in 4 years, so am I masculine?
This is a label that is difficult for me to 'wrap' my head around, because of the ongoing topic. Sometimes it seems, that because the argument that society has created the these ideas of what is masculine and what is femine: what is male and what is female: then what we are really feeling in association to these words isn't true. That they are merely, what the culture has created them to be, so where does that leave me? Am I feminine (because I certainly feel it) or is this what society has led me to believe? I know I am female, born of that sex. I feel connected as a woman and certainly feel like I carry both "masculine" and "feminine" traits, but strongly connected to the ladder. This may be because I am a mother, which leads me into the next image.

When I look at this picture, I can relate to the countless hours I spent playing with my son, making him laugh, staring into his precious little face, goofing around on the bed while he gained the strength to lift his head. Does this represent the entirety of "mother" certainly not, but it does represent a mother. However, that's because I live in America, am white, a woman, etc. Would this still represent a "mother" in other cultures or societies?

So I thought, what would "lower-middle class" result in. Sure, if you are married and have children. But what about the single non parent people out there that don't make enough money to buy a house but isn't so poor that they are struggling to survive?
I am also an athlete, an avid biker and trail runner, and I practice yoga. I won't even include a picture of "biker" as all of the images that came up are motorcycles and I downhill and cross-country, so that is definitely not accurate for
my identification. The trail runner image is mostly accurate, since I run in similar terrain, although I'm pretty sure she's more
built than me.
I have to include the yogi results because I find it the most comical.

SO either you are yogi the bear or an oiled up, insanely muscled woman.....oh AND naked!!! Seriously, WTF!!! I found that a meme best described my experience as a yoga practitioner.
Basically, the search engine came up with some results that are totally understandable yet definitely not
ME. They are geared towards internet marketing, which is a technique of getting images and pages on the first results of search engines. What is interesting is discovering what those are.